We all feel fired up, and great about ourselves, when we are super focused and productive. We feel like we could take on the world, one to-do list at a time.
Checking things off at the speed of light feels great don’t get me wrong.
But today I am proud of myself for letting go of this need.
The energy isn’t there and I know that. I know I need to allow myself to slow down.
And something amazing has happened. I have found a way to work with my slower state and still be productive.
Normally, I fight the urge to slow down. I get angered with myself when the inspiration and motivation isn’t there. I try to force myself into that state of excited action.
It hasn’t worked.
But just in the last few days, I’ve just kind of stopped caring. Well, that’s not entirely true. I do care. I care a lot. But I realize what I was doing before wasn’t working, wasn’t healthy.
So, today I only put two things on my to-do list, start notes and continue notes for two different projects. I put it on my list this morning. And then I just kind of forgot about it and left it alone.
I did other things today. I went and got my hair cut, I watched three episodes, with my boyfriend, in our bed of “Making a Murderer”.
Then he left to have drinks with a friend who is in town, it is Friday night I guess.
And me? I had this voice in my head [my own] that said, Alright Victoria, it’s time to go sit down at the kitchen counter and get to work on those two items.
I turned on my twinkle lights, lit a few candles, poured a glass of wine, switched on my Spotify and got to work.
Granted I watched a few YouTube videos, and called my parents before actually starting. I’m just easing myself in, I told myself. I set a limit, ten minutes of videos, then see if you’re ready to work.
And I was.
I’ve sat down, finished those two items, and then decided to tack on writing this post as well. Look at you go girl, I say to myself, you’re killing it right now.
So, what I’m trying to tell you in all of this is that it’s OK to let go of the responsibility for a few days. Let go of the need to be uber productive. And you just might be surprised with the response from your mind and body. Alright it says, you’re giving me what I need, I’ll give you a little something in return.